I realize that a lot of my posts involve either talk of weather or nature, but I think that's a bit of an obsession for me. I mean, I am the girl who fantasizes about moving out to the middle of the woods and leaving the monotony of economy-driven, corporate-run life behind. But that kind of brings me to the point of this entry.
Can I just vent for a bit? Thank you kindly. How many of you are miserably dissatisfied with the offerings that we seem to have to choose from as far as a lifestyle goes? Okay, let me explain further. (I'm about to get all philosophical again and it's not going to be pretty.) We live in a world that has been, somehow, micromanaged down to the smallest detail by our varied and individual societies. We live in a world that makes laws and rules and writes into practice the "standards" and expectations we should all be meeting from day to day. And some rules are good. Some are helpful and needed. But others? Others I believe are deeply flawed. And as a result, we're so narrowly focused on making money (a totally human and controlling invention) so we can pay bills (again, a society mandate), that the portrait of our life looks as follows: We get up in the morning (often dreading the day), to go to work at a groan-worthy job, we come home and do all the basic, thoughtless things we normally do, and then we go to bed. And when we wake up, we do it all over again. And again. And again.
So many people tell me they're dissatisfied with this mundane kind of existence (and I say existence because for many of us, this is all it is,) but you don't know how to break the mold--mainly because you don't recognize that you're in one, and because we live in a world that is hostile to doing so. The truth is, that some folks want to keep your life the size that is comfortable for them. But... that is hardly an eternal excuse not to break out of the box and expand your energy and be and feel and live just as freely and beautifully as you were always intended to.
Part of the reason I've gone down the writing path is for freedom, hoping that one day it will allow me a certain level of independence where I can breathe my own air and live my own life. And if a traditional nine-to-five makes you happy, if it works for you and your family and it leaves you fulfilled, then I'm excessive amounts of happy for you, my friend. To each his own purpose. But I've walked that route for many years, and it occurs to me that, firstly, I wasn't, in any of that time, doing what I was meant to. (Though it's likely that those experiences have nudged me toward what I'm supposed to be doing, and so I can't discount them.) But, they weren't my ultimate end. And I have to wonder, how many of us ignore our ultimate end? How many of us are scared crapless of our own potential? How many of us stick with the job we hate, all the while resenting the hell out of everyone else who abandons their chains and does the opposite? I have to say, over the years, as I've felt more awake and aware and worked to break free, when I've dared to mention that I didn't feel I was meant to indulge the cookie-cutter kind of choices and whatnot that humanity has fallen comfortably (albeit unhappily) into, I've gotten some pretty pissy responses. People seem to have an initial gut reaction of defensiveness, of anger that I would be in any way dissatisfied with the same path that they chose to walk. I get comments like, "well, what's wrong with _____ ? I've been doing it for twenty years." Or, "Well, maybe if you just told yourself to be happy doing _____ then you would be."
Really? Because no. No, guys. Look, you want to know what I believe my job is here? It's to inspire people to LIVE. Not only because it seems like a cool thing to do, but because I could have used that inspiring many times over, and the few times I came across someone or something that invigorated my spirit and shouted me awake, well, I was grateful. And that's putting it mildly. Do not die wishing. Do not die regretting. Do not die without having lived!!
So I dare you--ignore the bitter stares and ignorant comments, and live YOUR life according to your purpose, according to what you were meant to do. And be joyful and loving and brave. I'm trying my best, scary as it is, and I'll continue to keep you posted. You do the same. Tell me about your struggles and I'll try and give you hope, whether it's my posts, my novels or just a private message. Hit me up if you need a pick me up.
With much love,